Being a mother is amazing. It's tiring, and it's stressful - but also very rewarding. I am back to work full time - which blows. But what can you do. Kenny has seen Ella once - for an hour and a half and has sent me $120 - $120 total. For medical bills, babysitting fees - everything - and she is 5 months old. WHO THINKS THAT IS OK? I mean I would be fine if he just disappeared. But if he demands to be in her life - he needs to be giving us a lot more than that. He was also served with custody and support papers almost 2 weeks ago. He called me right after he was served and cursed me out, called me every horrible name in the book and told me he was going to get me and I was going to pay for this. He is such a pleasant man.

Work sucks and hopefully things will change soon, altho I dont have much hope for it. There are two people here that just try to make my life hell - and it's working. I just need to learn how to ignore them and go on with me day. It's just hard when they attack me over everything and blame me for mistakes that happened when I wasn't here or for something that I had nothing to do with.

I just have to keep reminding myself that I am doing this for Ella. She is the only thing that matters and I am just here to make money to support her - not friends.

I wish I was able to get more sleep. But I am doing ok. I just get really tired around this time of day. Hopefully this will get better as time goes on.