Last night Kenny and I faught about stupid shit. First thing was when he told me he didnt have time to email me something about work that I had to deal with today. Like I was supposd to be able to read his mind and remember today when I went into work to do it. He told me he was joking with me when he said he wouldnt do it. But at that point I was already so irritated and mad I didnt want to hear it.

He called me when he got home and we had a good talk. Then at the end of the conversation he told me to call him tomorrow (technically today) "after" and when I asked what "after" meant he said I would find out today. I hate it when people tell you something is going to happen, or has happened, and then you have to wait around to figure out what it is. If you want to surprise me or do something like that.. don't tell me to expect something. So joking with him I told him I hated him. I say stuff like that all the time.

Well that pissed him off.

We got into a big fight because of it. I tried to explain to him that I am not like every other person that is all lovey dovey and gushy over the other person. Instead of saying I love them or how beautiful they are.. I do the opposite. I've always been like that because it's not in my nature so be all mushy about everything.

He laughed when I told him that and told me I was crazy and it was the stupidest thing he ever heard. I was so hurt. This is me dude. Deal with it or get out. It hurt me so bad tho that he laughed at me and said those things. I got mad and was yelling at him and being a bitch and finally he flipped out on me and told me he didnt want to talk to me anymore and hung up.

So I laid there for a minute wondering what just happened. I understand its the beginning of our relationship and we are still feeling eachother out.. but this is hard since we are such complete polar opposites.

He called me back not even 2 minutes later to apologize. I apologized and thanked him for calling me back. I shed a few tears and told him how happy I was that he called. I wouldn't have been able to sleep had he not called me back. And he is a firm believer in never going to bed mad.

He told me he wasnt going to call me back, but he knew he had to otherwise it would have just eaten at him the whole night.

He keeps me grounded. When my heads get in the clouds or I flip out for no reason.. he's there to pull me back down and make sure I am ok. We equal eachother out and I am very thankful to have him as a part of my life right now.

Moving into the condo tomorrow. Susan is back. She is coming here tonight to help me pack and sort. She said she will also help me move tomorrow. Jess and Rob are supposed to help too. I am excited but nervous. And I cried last night as I was falling asleep because I was thinking about my cat and how much this is going to devestate her when I am gone. She breaks my heart.

It's Friday. WooHoo!